it's a long time since i saw you

went to Civic Centre's Mac again with Sze Hui to do hw. do abit. chat alot. lols. abt 5pm, he called me. he said he passing me my kor's disc. so he came to find me at Civic Centre. before he came, my heart kept beating. i dunno why. i was so nervous. maybe i dunno how to react bahs. from far, i saw him coming. i can confirm it's him. as he walked closer, my heart pump very fast. i saw him. he passed me the disc & the money i lend to him last time. i passed him his T-shirt i bought ytd. he smiled. i felt so glad. i refuse to look into his eyes cos' i became shy. aix. after he's gone, i couldn't concentrate on my hw anymore. i kept thinking of him. i miss him. suddenly, i felt the urge to find him. so i told Sze Hui that we go shopping instead. as we start walking, i was finding for him. we went to the arcade. hoping he's there playing the tennis game. but couldn't find him. aix. i really miss him. i was wondering if he's with another girl alr.. aix. smsed him at 6 plus but no reply. i wanna hug you. kiss you like what we are last time. i miss your hug. can you let me hug you for the last time? aix. i actually met you just now but my feeling was i havent met you. and i forget your face. when can we meet again? i wonder. soon i hope. but i think we'll meet very long later.. the most cruel things is that when both of them are in love but are forced to be apart. aix..

whr are you?

smsed Sze Hui this morning. asked her if wanna go out today. so we met at 12 noon at 903 bus. went to Bugis Village. she was finding her sch bag. but couldn't find a suitable one. i walked past this shop & remember he din have enough T-shirts so i bought 2 T-shirts for him and i'm left with $8+ . then, walked back to Bugis Junction to take neoprints. after that, i'm left with $2.95 so i bought a fillet burger meal. just nice. then, we walked the whole Bugis Junction & we are back at the neoprints shop. we took another machine. lend $5 from Sze Hui to take neoprints. after that, we took escalator down to find her sis at Fish & Co. she treating both of us dinner but must wait for her get her work done first. so we crossed the road to This Fashion. we walked ard a few times. as we have nothing to do, so we took a top & a bottom to try it out. just nice her sis came out of the restaurant le. had our dinner at V8 Cafe. had Black Pepper Seafood Spaghetti. thx, Sze Hui's sis! so pai seh nehs. eat free dinner. anyway, we took 960 to Woodlands at 9pm. reached Causeway Point at 10pm. actually meeting him. but think it's too late. he gotta rest bahs. anyway, me & Sze Hui hanged ard Causeway Point cos' Sze Hui's mum not home tonight. she dun wanna go home so early, so do i. then, there's a grp of people standing there. looking at our direction. shouting "CHA BO!" means girl. we ignored & walked off. there's this girl came tapping on my shoulder. "eh. my friend wants your no. care to give?" i just shook my head. she went off. then, we headed to Civic Centre's Mac. sat there chatting without buying anything. ard 11.30pm, we went off. Sze Hui acc me to the bus stop near the bridge there. i walked home then. refused to ask kor to fetch me at first. starting to feel the danger when there's a few guys kept aiming at me. wanting my attention. so i called kor to come down to wait for me. on the way, was on the phone with Sze Hui. afraid she might be attack or something lidat. finally, we're safely home.

i dunno what's happening.. i dun wanna think further. you just made me hate you. i couldn't think gd abt what you'll do. i couldn't. bcos' when i tried to think that you still cares abt me, the more i'm hurt. you doesn't seem to care anymore. who am i to you? who actually am i? those memories of ours.. issit becoming only the past? what are you doing these few days? what have you been thinking? am i still in your mind? am i? everyday, i numb myself by going out. i hate staying at home! I HATE IT! esp. when i need to be at home at night. my tears start dropping every night. i got to slp at 1-2am. cos' i couldn't slp. i cried in order to get to slp. it's a wk since we broke. it's like months to me! everyday i'm living like hell. it sucks ok! everyday, i've been seeing the phone.. if you have sms me. everytime there's a msg, i always hope it's you. but now, i dun dare to even hope it's you. i dun wan always there's a disappointment. aix.

i miss u.

went to sch in the afternoon for CO. skip my lunch. reached sch's bus stop very early. smsed Corrine. told her i'll wait for her & go in together. i sat on the bus stop. listening to FM. Ni Shi Wo De Lao Po from Huang Ping Yuan. Then, i thot of the moments you sang to me last time. how deeply you love me in the past. i managed to hold back my tears. Corrine came. went in for CO. i tried my best to concentrate then. but after CO, it return back to normal. i took 913 to Causeway Point & walked to your hse to return your sis' disc. on the way, memories flashed across my mind. my mood went down. i reached your doorstep & i saw your mum. she called "Xiong! Mei!". she wanted to call your sis but out of sudden she accidentally called "Xiong!". i was wondering if you're at home aslp or are you still working. your mum also asked if i wanna go in & take a seat. i told her i'm meeting mum. she replied "oh.. perhaps another day bahs." after that, i walked back to Causeway Point. while i'm at the traffic light, there's these 2 guys on the van. they called "xiao mei!" i knew they were calling me but i purposely din turn my head. i continued walking. they too continue calling. i ignored them & walked away. i went to meet mum. had Mos' Burger for dinner. then, mummy showed me the IC she took for me. nicely made. =)

what can i do now? everyday, putting up an act for everyone to see. at night, in front of the com crying alone. i missing you every single moment. i just couldn't get my mind of you. but what can i do, huh? i can't call. neither sms. nor meet you. i'm no longer your girl. you're no longer my boy. i have no reasons to do anything else for you. when will we meet again? perhaps i'll meet you not alone but your new girl bahs. a better girl. maybe there's a minimum chance of patching. but i'll still wait. until one day you tell me that we can NEVER patch. then, that's when we end totally.

i dunno how i'll do for next year. will my result remain, become better or getting worse? can i put my personal probs aside? aix. it affects my future. anyway, i'm sorry i couldn't be the one announcing to you your 'O' level result and sharing the joy or sorrowness with you. but i sincerely hope you'll do well. getting to a poly and having a gd course. all the best. i'll love you always.

goin crazy!

went downstairs to exchange x'mas present with Teresa this afternoon. it's drizzling. so managed to stand under the rain awhile. went home then. cried a few times today. i dunno what happen to you. maybe you have no feelings for me anymore. i just wanna tell you. i miss you. miss your everything. it's a torture everyday. and i hate staying at home. i'm getting depression soon.. aix. so i'm escaping the moments i'm alone at home. i'm afraid i might just slash my wrist again. i dunno what to do now. i just need someone to be by my side. so that i could hug & cry and not putting on a mask.

after that msg you sent me, i've decided not to call/sms you anymore.. not at all. afterall, i realise i'm too dumb. maybe i'm not the person you're finding bahs. all the best then. i still love you deeply.

KBoxing!

woke up at 9am this morning. bathe & prepare to meet Sze Hui & Anna for KBoxing. lols. we reached CCK before 11am. so we walked ard the shopping centre. suddenly, Sze Hui told Anna that her friend named Irene birthday coming. wanna buy something for her. then, they say her size like me. so they asked me to try out norhs. they were blinking eyes to each other but i din notice. so they walked to this OP shop to see. asked me to choose for them. so i picked the white short-skirt at first. e pattern very nice. but no S size. then, i chose a simple pink short-skirt. went to try on. size just nice norhs. den they told the person next time bahs. cos' not enough money. was abit weird nahs. cos' come buy present cant possibly bring not enough money. lols. maybe i'm just too blur in the morning. cant really concentrate these few days. anyway, we went to Watson then. Sze Hui & her boy went to toilet. that's what i was being told. but they went to buy the skirt instead! =( din realise. 11am le. we took escalator up to 4th floor. alot of people queuing for KBox. when our turn, the person said all rooms reserved. -.- so decided to go Jurong there. nearly fully booked. but luckily still have room norhs. we separated our rooms. Anna & me. Sze Hui gotta wait awhile. hmm. din dare to sing at first. called Sze Hui to come our room to start. lols. then, we sing abt i think 15 mins or so. Sze Hui stood outside the room. i told Anna to ask her come in. she went out awhile. asked her what Sze Hui say. she dun wanna tell me. then, suddenly Sze Hui came in with a small lil cake & the pink skirt she bought frm OP. i was so SHOCKED! nearly cried. but held back my tears. so touching nehs. THANKS SO MUCH!! LOVE YA, NANA & SZE HUI! then, we continued singing till 2pm. quite cheap wor. $12.90 for 2 person. 1 drink & 1 pastry. after that, we went to Jurong Point. thot there's neoprint shop. it closed down le. that's was whr me & him had our neoprint first taken. so, we went back to CCK to take neoprints. took 3 diff machines. so nice! hees. it's abt time le. Anna alighted at Kranji. took bus back home. Sze Hui & i went to Cwp to take neoprints again. gees. mummy called. she asked me to go 883 eat dinner. took bus to 883. had dinner and then back home.

so sians. wanna go out again just now. but dunno go whr. end up at home watched tv norhs. tml think goin out bahs. aix. that's all for today!

BIG THANK YOU FOR NANA & SZE HUI!!! =)

missing you.

afternoon, went to lend disc from Florence. after that, smsed Sze Hui. asked if there's anyone at her hse. dun intend to go home so early since mummy went to CCK to dye back her hair. her uncle was going over to her hse so she decided to come over my hse instead to watch VCDs. she bought a few VCDs. watched Bug Me Not, One Missed Call. Bug Me Not was so cute. the lil bugs were so CUTE! coochie coochie. lols. One Missed Call was SCARY! hiding behind the pillow. covering 1 of my eyes. hahas. at night, watched tv norhs. eyes were too tired & i fell aslp on the sofa. woke up at ard 10pm. walked back to mum's room. but couldn't get to slp. something in my mind kept me awake. so decided to wake up & on the com. aix. but lil people online.

wondering why my hp din ring. perhaps just a msg is enough. what are you doing? i'm pondering. are you aslp? suddenly, i lost the courage to sms you. received a private call ard 7pm. but the person din speak. it pause for abt 10 sec. i was thinking was it you who called. aix. maybe that person dialed wrong no. bahs.

min er, i'll be waiting for the day too. you gotta tk gd care of yourself. if there's any prob, come and find me. the days we had, i'll never forget. i'll also miss you. never forget you. love you, my dear mei. i believe we'll be together again. =)

tml going out with Sze Hui & Anna. shld be either going Kbox or Ice Skating. finally. hees.

i gonna get out of that hell place. it's not that i dun like home but when i have nothing to do. i'll think wild. aix. whatever!

my hp kept hanging now & then. only 1 month it starts to hang. aix. wan that Nokia 6111. lalalas. but nvm.

lonely X'mas.

Gonna be X'mas soon. hmms. 15 mins later. but my house is so quiet. kor went out with frens. mum reading newspaper. lil people online now. think they're having party else whr bahs.

went to CCK in the afternoon while waiting for the person to send the shoe cabinet here. had treatment & abit of cutting. mum highlighted her hair. but they din do a gd job. it doesn't look like highlighted hair but. dyed hair. -.- now my mum looks like "ah ma". cos' the color is so light. mummy was so fed up. dun dare to go out. lols. need a HAT! hahas. after that, went to buy X'mas presents. walking a big round at CCK & umpteen times at Cwp. cos' i dunno what to buy. then, bought Birthday cake for dad.

shoe cabinet was sent to my hse. helped mum to arrange the shoes. LOTS of shoes! but some gotta throw lerhs. mostly is mummy de. alot spoil le. and kor's shoes so damn SMELLY! salted fish! =X

hmms. wondering what do ya guys do during Christmas.. go town? think that's whr teenagers are.. lols. lots of theif! careful of ya belongings! lastly, MERRY CHRISTMAS! BEST WISHES TO ALL!

Happy Birthday, dad!

it's dad's birthday today! nearly forget. =X sorry. aix. my stupid brain. anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD! i love you.

it's Christmas Eve today. just an early greetings to everyone! mummy bought me a silver bracelet! wee hees. so nice! thx, mum! he bought bracelet for kor too.

suppose to go CCK today. mummy was waiting for the person to send the shoe cabinet in the morning. but the person say the cabinet wasn't make nicely. so he rejected the product. so must wait till evening norhs. so good of him nehs. heng. he checked properly.

hmms. what's tomorrow's activity? no idea. it's another day perhaps. nothing to celebrate abt actually.

i kinda regret buying the flip phone. cos' too lil memory. crys. aix. because of my stubborness. =X the new Nokia 6111. slide phone. so cool! the color is abt the same as my current flip phone. so PRETTY! at least this phone has a much bigger memory space & cam is 1 megapixel. aix. was thinking of this phone. admiring it. couldn't change nahs. i know. cos' i just changed my hp abt 1 month ago. but it's ok. i still love my phone. shld be staying with me at least 1 yr bahs before i begged mummy or earn money to buy another new one. =)

chat with Sze Hui & Serbian ytd night. hmms. felt so fortunate to have a gd family. i dun wish for much anymore. glad with my life! (:

thx!

Woke up early this morning. Smsed Sze Hui. asked her if she's free. waited till ard 12 noon. she replied. we met at Cwp at 1.15pm. brought hw. but end up at KBox instead. din hav the mood to do. went to Party World to check out the price. $40 plus for 2 person. it's exp! so, we were walking back & forth frm Civic to MRT station. we dunno if KBox or Party World is better. after we went into Party World to check out the price. we decided to go to KBox instead. bought Sushi & headed to CCK. sign on membership since we dun have. we started singing at ard 3pm till abt 7.45pm. lols. cos' the person din come in to ask us to pay bills. we sing till so shiok. lols. but the place really cold. body shivering. luckily, Sze Hui brought jacket. if not, i'll be frozen. hahas. i also bought Teresa's X'mas present le! lols. Shh.. dun tell her what i buy for her. haha. met mum while on my way home. had Sushi for dinner. hahas. cos' i din eat it just now.

hmms. got back my smiles, laughters. thx, Sze Hui. dun worry, guys (Serbian, Anna, Sze Hui). i'm alright. =) thx for you all de concern! hahas. maybe gonna hang out at KBox often! lols. i dun wanna stay at home. home is just a hell place. anyway, i think that's all for today.

broken smile.

fairytale ended. dun ask why. dun ask further. everything ended. that's it. just need to bring back my smile. that's all i wanted. broken smile.

pain. >.<

Met mummy ytd to do my IC. mummy took half-day leave. actually meeting at 12 noon.. but i was reading the mag mummy bought. somemore my stomach hurts! what a torture being a girl! =X abt 11.30 den i left home. i was bearing the pain all the way to Lavender. i din eat anything for breakfast. kinda weak. reach there. gotta take photo. so i took escalator up to 2nd floor. queue for the photo-taking. so cold! *brrr* cos' 3rd 4th & 5th floor also have photo-taking de. so mummy went to the 5th floor to check out if there's any queue. no one wor. so i took the lift up. shot my photo. heng. the person not very strict wor. cos' my fringe kept falling. heng. she din call me to clip it up. lols. if clip up sure very ugly. luckily, the photo was okay. but abit chubby. my face nahs. so many baby fats! =( after that, went down to 3rd floor to do IC. mummy told the person that she'll help me take. cos' mummy working at the building. next wk can take le.. hees. finish le. mummy brought me to the coffee shop nearby to eat. i ate abt 1/4 then i dun wan le. stomach pain, no appetite. drank Barley. cant drink cold de. fortunately, my stomach not pain le. so we went shopping at Bishan.. bought shorts, slippers & hp accessory. changing the orange furry. the orange furry dunno wanna put whr nehs. abt 3.50pm, i was hungry & ate at Secret Recipe. yum yum. secretly sip a mouthful of Ice Lemon Tea. hees. anyway, reached home ard 6 plus. waiting for dear to take the bks. so HEAVY nehs! he took cab off then.

hmms. today suppose to meet Sze Hui & Anna. but, Anna gotta go pray her grandma during Dong Zi. it's a day whrby we eat Tang Yuan. so, we meeting next mon. waiting for that day.. hees.

Sat, gotta go have my hair cut. it's growing long and lots of SPLIT-ENDS!! gonna buy present for Teresa too. exchanging X'mas present! hees. think that's all! ciaos~

cockroach!

Just finish bathing. kinda late i know. but i wanna feel comfortable when i slp later. after my bath, i wrapped myself with a towel & as usual i brush my teeth & wash my face. when suddenly, this cockroach flew into my bathroom & hit my head & dropped onto the basin. of cos' i screamed. quickly shouted for mummy. mummy came & smacked it. it died. i'm sorry. din mean it. maybe mum hit it too hard. =X

mummy bought the new magazine. U Weekly. it costs only $1. the mag is BIG. lots of stuffs to see too! hmm. you all can try buying. HIGHLY RECOMMENDED! think that's abt all.. continue my craps with sze hui.. hehe. (nana dun jealous. oops! lols)

bled.

finishing my chinese hw these few days. but still lil stuck at newspaper report. was copying halfway. realised it doesn't fit the topic. =X watched A Lot Like Love DVD. kinda sians at first. it's a romance movie. so they keep on kissing.. Americans are really OPEN-MINDED! if you all seen this movie, you'll understand why. lols. overall, the show is okay bahs. at least i'm able to finish the show.

just came back frm piano lesson. havent ate my dinner. mummy is coming home late tonight. had bread during lunch. have been eating bread these few days. wanna slim down. so dun dare go downstairs buy. lols. i scared of being FAT! =(

yeah! going out on thur with Sze Hui & Anna. my gd buds. hehe. going Bugis again for shopping! wee! Bugis, here i come! (=

dunno when am i going to tk my IC photo.. anyway, does anyone knows if there's any rules to follow when taking IC photo? no dangling earrings or anything lidat? cos' if not, i'll go on thur after shopping.

hmms.. feeling moody these few days. maybe it'll be better when sch reopens. cos' my buddies will be back! wees! crappy jokes coming ahead! =]

This is the Pigglet Val & Ter give me de. cute bahs. Christmas Pigglet oh. hees.





These are some of the photos taken with Teresa that day. Nice? hahas.

emptiness.

the world suddenly kinda become dark. it doesn't seems to be as bright as last time. passing everyday aimlessly. aix. so empty. so lonely. i tried to occupy myself. it doesn't seems to work. i'm out everyday but i'm not glad at all. i miss the days we used to be. when will your soul be back? i wonder. you seem to be so far.. actually you're so near. in the middle of a jungle is whr i am now. and i couldn't find the way out. i hid under the tree. i cried out loud but no one heard me. helpless but had no choice..

guys are all the same.

Watched 'The Promise' with Teresa & Valarie today. Valarie treat me & Teresa. we only paid $2 each as she doesn't have enough money.. the show started very late. about 10mins for the advertisements. the show lasted for about 2hrs. it's a nice show indeed. at first, while we're deciding what show to watch, i totally have no idea what's the show is about. okay. now i've watched it. i'll roughly blog what is the movie about. there's this girl called Qing Cheng. she's kinda like a beggar. she met the Godness of.. something but i forget the name. then, she told her she can be rich but the only thing is that she will not find real love. even if she finds her real love, it will not last long. of cos' as a kid. she knows nuts about love. she agreed. she became the princess. but all along, her love was never real. in the end, a guy called Kun Lun wore the coat & brought her back to the past. he told her to make her decision again. in between, there's still alot of things i din mention. sorry for cutting the story so short. it's a very long story. so watch it if you're interested.

after that, me & Teresa went to take neoprints. pics dunno when can put up. cos' no scanner. And Teresa & Valarie bought me a Pigglet. sooooo CUTE! thx so much, Ter & Val!

Anyway, just finish watching 'Wu Chu Cai Hong'. so sad norhs. if you all got see.. Guys are JERKS! argh! giving empty hopes. felt so sad for Yoyo. aix. i dunno why guys dun treasure their loved ones. until one day, they lose them & start to regret. and everything's too late...

withered.

Yesterday, went out with dear. he wanted to buy a bracelet for me from a jewellery shop. think $128 if i'm not wrong. of cos' i rejected. so exp! in the end, i told him a treat will do. he also bought back the 'lost ring' but engrave diff name. after that, took lift to 7th floor to eat Sakae Sushi. actually, wanted to go Ichiban but i prefer Sakae. ate about $39. damn full. even dear couldn't finish. hahas. took MRT to Bishan. took neoprints and off to Novena. thought there's things to shop. -.- end up the place was so QUIET! on the way, my foot hurts cos of the STUPID SHOE. =( WONT WEAR IT AGAIN! then, we took the mrt to Orchard. walked to Far East. dear bought a kinda wrist band. after WALKING(instead of shopping), we sat near the Taxi Stand waiting for time to pass.. i know we're lame. but my foot hurts. dear alighted at Yio Chu Kang for work. i alighted at Sun Plaza. kor & mummy waiting for me there to have dinner. told mum to buy a slipper for me. i chose 1 pair & i wore it after that. ate dinner at the restaurant. Shark Fins.. hehe. wanted to call Chilli Crab but 1 KG too big liaos. so we ordered SET de. after eating, tried lots of pants at THIS FASHION. bought 3 items. kor waited for 1 hr. lols. sorry! bought a small lil cake at the Q Bread. din eat yesterday. too late le. still in the fridge. eating later. that's how i celebrated my birthday. it's kinda like a dream for me. aix. anyway, thx for those who wished me Happy Birthday! greatly appreciated! esp. Serbian who smsed me at 12mid! kor gave me a lil pink drawer. hees. took it from him in the middle of the night when he's playing game. hahas. last but not least, thx dear for accompanying me the whole day & taking half day leave! =)

Today, went to KBox at CCK with Corrine & Serbian. they treat me. hees. thx! the ppl there took a pic of the 3 of us. instant cam. but the pic kinda light norhs. the pic with me. after that, walked around Lot 1 & Causeway Point. din buy anything. only bought a bubble tea home.

Just now, before i entered my house, i saw the plant outside my house withered. i tried to help but.. the stem broke. aix. poor plant. if there's another way to save you, i will. i'm tired.

Yesterday night, i dreamt of a guy. i dunno who is he. but he appeared in my dreams. i helped him to carry bks i think. but i left my bks in the lift. then, someone took it away. the lift went up to 10th floor & back again. so we went to the 10th floor to search for it. we went to every house to ask. no one admit it. in the end, he saw my bks at the side of 1 of the house. so we asked them again. the children admit and i woke up. it's so real. when i woke up, then i realised it's just a dream. back to reality again.

Tml is my day! wees!

Watched "50 First Dates".. really interesting & hilarious. there's this guy called Henry who work as an artic wildlife vet. he met a girl in a restaurant called Lucy who has Short-Term Memory after an accident last year. Henry fell in love with her. Everyday, he would try all kinds of methods to date her while Lucy has been waking up every morning thinking it's Sunday last year. well.. what's the ending.. see it for yourself. hees. i'm bad. =P

Tomorrow is my day! lalalas.. dear took half day leave to acc me. so nice of him! gees! love him! muacks! :D on the phone with him.. bye~

Changed blogskin.

Just manage to change blogskin. found this simple & nice. but still editing. hmm. got time den edit bahs.

Yesterday, watch 'Shen Hua' DVD. quite nice. today, watch "Wait til' you're older" DVD. A really nice show. must watch wor. meaningful show. hees. touching too. ='( i cried. hmm. a few more DVDs to go. hees. LOVE watching DVDs!!

movies!

Watched Chicken Little yesterday with dear. abit late i know. =( the chicken is so ADORABLE! fishy & the 'mao mao' thingy also very CUTE nehs. overall the show was hilarious. lolx. 4 stars! the storyline abit too simple bahs. duration was too short. about 1 hr 15 mins. it ended very quickly. but still, i like this show. (= After the show, dear wanted to take a nap at home. he's tired. took 962 back to his home. about 1.45pm, he woke up & off we go. i accompany him to the Admiralty MRT station. on the way, we laughed & giggle. saying all the lame jokes. and i do enjoy. =] the train came. he ran to catch the train. and of cos' i took 913 home. wanted to go out but seems like everyone's busy. smsed sze hui. she just went for dental & was pain inside her mouth. so, din went out norhs. walked home. watched "A Cinderella Story". quite long ago show. a really nice show i would say. the story basically have the background story of the Cinderella. the main actress is really beautiful. and together with the main actor. it's perfect! well, that's all bahs. watching more movies..! DVDs at home waiting for me! hahas.

so scared. =(

Yesterday, i went to my jiu jiu's condo. so pretty! although it's small, but the place is perfectly designed. his house is located at the 1st floor. so there's some kinda back door. then, there's a path to the swimming pool. so nice! i went to swim for awhile with his 2 kids. 3 yrs old & 5 yrs old. went to the kids pool at first. stupid gou gou (kor kor). you know what he told me? "You be here with these kids ah.. i go medium pool swim.." in mandarin. -.-' cos' the kids love to play with me. And it's kinda wierd to see a BIG size guy in the kids pool. haha. (HAHA.. GIANT COMING! RUN!) lolx. after awhile, the 3 yr-old called Zi Ning started to shiver. so they went back to bathe le. i went to find kor then. we compete with each other. of cos' he won. =( i'm a beginner. bleahx. =P after that, we went back to his house to bathe. by then, it's time for dinner. we walked to Lot 1 to eat Ajisen Ramen. I ordered Tom Yum Ramen. it sucks. =( exchanged with mummy norhx. =P walked back to my jiu jiu's house to watch Awards Ceremony. around 10.30pm we took Mrt home. at Marsiling stop, suddenly a guy age around 30+ shouted and he fell down & knocked his head on the metal bar. it bled. he suffered from 'fit'. luckily, he din bite on his tongue. i was standing there. i was so shocked! there's 2 guys who tried to help and pressed on the emergency button. there's a Indian lady who came and helped. think she's a nurse bahx. awhile later, a few people came & helped carry him to the lift. i was so stunned. my heart kept beating. Couldn't get to sleep at night while on my bed. i took a long time before i have the courage to close my eyes.

realised something. S'porean are still helpful. those who din help is not bcos' they are not helpful but bcos' they din noe wad to do. it's adviceable not to help if you do not know how to. it may danger their life instead. =)

this morning, dear called me. it's 10.30am. still at sleep. i asked why today so early call wor. he told me cos' today early lunch lo. abit blur lo. jux wake up mahx. den okay lo. but still puzzled why lunch so EARLY! normally 12noon de. den the place like so quiet norhx. i asked again. he said cos' at the corner. he said his frens all go back to work le. then, he said he will call me again at 11am. at around 10.45am, he sms me. he said he couldn't be with me & told his fren to send me something. later he'll press the doorbell. there goes the bell. guess what? it's HIM! hees. =D hugged him tight! actually, today he should be starting work at 3pm but i forget. =X blur me. he's working till 11pm. =( i miss him so much now. * come back soon *

missing daddy`

flipping through the photos. reminiscing the past. suddenly, i miss my daddy. he went to a faraway place and i miss him so much! :( i wanna hug him so much. daddy, are you fine there? hope you sense me missing you. =) DADDY, I LOVE YOU!

1 more month

1 more month, school gonna start. prepare to sit for 'O' le. kinda afraid. aix. dunno if i'll be able to catch up with those subjects. now, it's end of Sec 3 le. but my results were still not up to mark. :( told myself to buck up during these School Holidays. of cos'. it's easy to say. =\ i couldn't get myself to sit down and do my homeworks & revisions. aix. piles of homeworks on my desk! din touch it for about a month? rotting le lo. aix. last month for me to clear all Sec 3's work. starting tomorrow. really HOPE so. i'm so SLACKY! =X getting fatter too.

mum just came back from Beijing & Bangkok. bought some shirts & shorts for me. tibits too. hmm. dear's working tomorrow. =( OT again. so tiring. aix. for money. no choice.

got a letter from ICA. making of IC. finally, it's my turn! lolx. told dear about it. he was like, "make IC only mahs. so happy.." lolx. k lahs. i think nothing to blog le bahs. end here. bye!